Two Things I Really Hate

Okay, so here are two things I really hate:

Let me set the scene for you. You've just gotten out of school or extracurricular project or something, and you're sitting on a bench, waiting for a significant other, friend and/or co-worker to pick you up. Someone that you know drives by after picking up another person who was involved in school or extracurricular project. They stop by, commenting on your new look or asking a quick question (i.e. "Did you get your school or extracurricular project finished?"), you answer, then they ask the question. I mean, it's not like it's obvious or anything. The stupidest 8 word question that has ever been asked. "Is someone coming to give you a ride?" I mean, whenever it happens to me, I want to answer "No... no... I just love sitting on benches until someone notices I'm gone and comes looking for me." I mean, it shouldn't make me so mad... but it does.

Another thing is something that I dread. I don't want to go into social situations because of it. Small talk. It's so... worthless. I mean, most people are like:

Tim: Hey John, nice to see you.
John: You too...
*awkward silence*
Tim: How about the weather?
John: Yeah! It's supposed to get over 100 degrees tomorrow.
Tim: That's hotter than your daughter!
John: ...
Tim: Um... I've got to go.

Great example of small talk. If it were up to me, it'd be:

Me: Hey! You know who's awesome?
Them: Peggy Sue
Me: Yeah... bye
Them: Bye!

See... no worthless opinions exchanged there... just cold hard facts. It starts quickly and ends quickly and there are no awkward silences or stupid things said. If you ever start small talk with me, you'll know that I hate it. I mean, for me it's like getting hit by a car. It's just like, I know where I'm going, then all of a sudden out of nowhere, "ASHLEY! HEY!" I've been hit! So what do I do now. "Hey Bob... what's cracken?" "Oh you know... not much, you?" "Um... not... not much." THIS IS CRITICAL NOW. It's at this point in the small talk where I shift my weight over to one leg and start looking over your shoulder at what I have to do. Sometimes, I walk away mid-sentence depending on what it is I have to do. You'll also notice that I bring up the task at hand a lot, like: "Oh yeah... I'm doing good... you know... just on my way to the Ice Cream Man. You know... Infact, yesterday I went to the Ice Cream Man and I got this great fudge bar. From the Ice Cream Man." If you don't get it by now, I'm just going to end our conversation. These are the usual things I say:

-Will you call me later? (This usually makes them happy, and say "Okay" and forget what they were talking about.)
-Oh... my dad's here (as much as I would love to stay and listen to you chat for hours about the weather.)
-Um... I've actually got to go. (this is straight and to the point. It gets the job done.)

Anyway, thanks for reading this...

Have a nice day.

Something To Think About

The world is hopeless. I mean, the only comfort we have is knowing that God knows our names and we'll be on the VIP list. It's a wonder I'm still alive. Do you know how many sick people there are out there? Do you know how easy it is to kill yourself on accident? It's... disgusting to say the least. Then we have these people:

Who don't understand the value of life. I mean... last week, I guess I didn't understand, but this week... I think I get it. They cut themselves to rid themselves of pain or for attention. Those who have true, genuine pain, don't try and show it off. They do things that no one will notice, like cutting and hiding it or biting themselves. I have to admit, I am guilty of biting myself once and a while. Try it when you get mad (just don't bite til you bleed... that hurts.) or something. Anyway, the point is that so much stress and crap gets built up at the same time, and there has to be a way to get out of the pain for a second. If these people had a will to die... they could.

Then on the other side of the color wheel, you have those emo's who are doing it for attention. The emo's who cut themselves too deep on purpose then call the ambulance. They need attention desperatly. They are SICK. Professional help can only be the good thing for them. I mean, it's perfect if you think about it. "I hate everyone, so if I make it look like I'm going to kill myself, they'll send me to therapy, people will be nicer as to not make me sad and I'll live to experience this all... perfect!"

Personally, both make me angry, though I do bite myself sometimes in times of great stress and I know it's bad and I need to stop and I will... it's been getting better. But before the 24th, my stress levels were waaaaaaaay too high. But it doesn't matter anymore... it's over and life is good. So... I hope I've given you something to think about.

Have a nice day.

I NOW DECLARE JUNE 24TH:

Brittain's Independance Day.

It's Been A Craaaazy Year

Okay... so I just had to make a list to clear it all up.
This list will be divided into three categories: things i've gained, things i've lost, things i've kept. Some of these will make the list a couple of times... bear with me, okay?

THINGS I'VE GAINED:

• Family
• Friends (though i'm not sure if they consider me their friend but oh well.)
• First Kiss
• Boyfriend
• Job
• First Prom
• Closer relationship with family/friends
• Stronger love for God
• God took me back... i will be forever greatful
• Learner's Permit
• Braces
• Organizers
• TONS of Christmas presents. but that's what you get when people feel bad for you. :P
• A better appreciation for life
• Knowledge
• Weight {Last year ----> :) This year ----> :)) }

Things I've Lost:

• My mom
• Some friends
• 6 months of my life
• A boyfriend
• Teeth (:E)
• My chances :(
• My lip-ginity
• Socks
• Money
• A blank, signed check (i found it)
• My small jeans
• Some innocence (i guess you could say)
• My ability to forgive myself
• My summer mornings
• I think some kidney function too... i'm not sure though.
• A cell phone

Things I've Kept:

• My virginity
• My good friends
• Family
• My sanity... mostly
• Music
• My ability to read sheet music
• Garbage. (there's still some in my backpack)
• Things that are valuable to me.
• This list going... seriously... it's time to stop.

So... i just made this list for giggles. Have fun, and feel free to contribute through comments. Thanks a bunch!

Have a nice day.